No more Miss Independent....for those Kelly fans

I have this constant battle, as I am sure most people do, being too independent. What I mean is that I do so much on my own, that I forget about God. I try so hard to be a good wife, mom, youth worker, friend that I forget about God.

When I fall on my face before God, literally, and take a second to listen to his heart and get out of my own selfishness, oh how he comes to life in me, and it is so wonderful! I feel like I just can’t express the love that I have for my savior, I pray that I will someday have the words to say…or maybe I should learn to just be.

Passion of the Christ

I have felt lately that I need to watch the Passion again. I really didn't want to, but for some reason I had this urgency to watch this movie. Well I was talking to Christina T. about it and she sent it home with Shawn. I wasn't expecting her to send it. Most people say hey I will lend you this movie and forget about it. So I was home by myself last night, the girls were asleep and so I watched it. And of course cried again.
But this time I cried becuase I realized something different. The first time I watched it I had this hatred towards the people who were pursecuting Jesus. This time my heart broke for them, I saw in Jesus' eyes the love that he had.
Now everyone who has talked to my husband lately has heard him say, well Jesus loves them too.When I have told Shawn about someone who has pissed me off, or someone that really annoys me, he has said, Jesus loves them too. And I just roll my eyes. Now I am getting it.
I know we have said it in church and I have agreed, but now I really see. I really understand that God loves the unloveable, the ones that are outcast in their families, the ones that have hurt their families, the people strung out, he loves them so much that He sent Jesus, to make the ultimate sacrifice. Amazing